I survived...

Hi Maya,

Well I survived my first three days back to work. Survived being the key word. Unfortunately they were not easy days, I ended up working over 30 hours in 30 days. The worst day being Thursday as I didn't get home until after 7pm.  On Wednesday I didn't cry as much as I thought I would, just a little teary as I pulled out of the garage...I of course missed you during the day but not as much as I thought I would. Probably because I was so busy I didn't have time too! However when I got home and saw you and thought of all I missed with you during the day I got really sad and cried....fortunately you did really well with Grandma.

I can already feel the pull that most moms talk about, trying to balance everything. I am hoping it will get easier and I am sure it will. I am definitely looking forward to transferring to my new job. It will be so nice to have every Friday off and hopefully having more predictable hours and getting home sooner.

It is just hard to think that some days I will only get to spend a few hours with you. You have been going to bed between 8 and 9. Sometimes I want to keep you up later just so I can spend more time with you but I know it is important that you get your sleep....

The next big step is your first day of daycare, which will be this coming Tuesday....I really like Mary but I think it is going to be really hard...I have really liked having Grandma taking care of you at our house. She sends me lots of pictures during the day which helps.

Daddy put a activity thing on your carseat that has all of these things that turn and make noises.  You figured out how to make them move all by yourself! And I don't think it was by accident, you seemed to know that if you touched it, it would move. You also like to put your little pink blanket in your mouth. I will try to post pictures of all this fun stuff at some point.

Well you are cooing and fussing a little in your swing, so I better go! I love you lots Mayabird and I hope that you don't miss me too much now that I am back at work. I hope you don't forget who I am...oh and you have slept in your crib on your own for a whole week now. We have a little routine. I or dad read you a book or two, give you your antibiotics, rock you a little and then down you go. The good thing is that you can be put in your crib awake and you will fall asleep on your own!!!