Well Maya you have been here for 9 days so far and what a whirlwind of 9 days it has been. It has hard to belief how much has changed since you were born and how much I have grown emotionally and recovered physically. You have been an absolute joy since you entered this world. After a long and hard delivery you came in with so much energy and health it put me at peace. I will never forget how you were chirping like a bird shortly after you were born and you were soo wide awake and interactive. Which was in such contrast to my in and out state due the magnesium drip I was on! You were patient with me that first night. However you were quite alert and at one point the nurse was out of the room and I was too weak and sore to get to you. I tried to wake your daddy up but he was so tired that he wouldn't respond! Finally I had to throw a pillow at him! That will be the first of many times that you will need us and we are up for the task and in fact will embrace it!!
Your entry into this world has definitely thrown me for a loop and my sense of the world and life and death in general. I have had a lot of anxiety about the big picture, and worried about bad things happening to you or your daddy from a global sense and how I would handle it. But then I just hold you, breastfeed you or just look into your eyes and feel you soft skin against me and I feel much better. I want to treasure every moment that I can and you motivate me not to worry so much about the things I can't control and just embrace every moment instead.
In the last 9 days you have smiled, lost your umbilical cord, had your first really messy poopy, made me scrunch my toes in pain while you breastfed, been held by your grandpa Assad and both your Grandmas as well as Auntie Soni. Lucy, the dog, has sniffed you. The list goes on! Overall you have been a very content baby who loves to be held while she sleeps and therefore needs a little more attention through out the night!
As I am not an "artsy fartsy" mom, I don't think it is realistic to think I will do a great job keeping up a babybook. So instead I will try my best to keep this blog up and write to you daily if I can at first. At some point I need to figure out how to post pictures on here!!!
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